I'm so irritable right now.

I was drawing mindless doodles for the past thirty or forty five minutes, and only one of them turned out to look half decent. Not even decent - just half decent. It makes me wonder where the hell my talent went. Why do I even bother studying art when I'm so effing bad at it? gkdlfgmlfg5io3ekjgr,m f,gdfm vA'dA/F

I watched Michael Jackons' memorial. Did you?

I thought it was extremely emotional, which is to be expected, but it was beautifully done. I'm sure Michael would have been really pleased by the whole experience, and to know that so many people love him. It never sunk in that he was actually gone until about halfway through the memorial. It was only then that it finally hit me. This is real. He is gone. He has really, truly passed away. He isn't going to show up somewhere like I thought he would. He's gone.

His death is affecting me much more than I ever thought it would.

I was never Michael's #1 fan, but I always highly respected his work and admired him as such a strong, influential individual. I always felt bad for him when everyone was against him, as they so often seemed to be. He didn't deserve any of that. Not one second of it. Watching the memorial really made me realize that he is gone, and what a fantastic person he really was. Paris (his daughter) made me bawl. "And I want to say I love him..."

He truly impacted not only the music industry, but the hearts of thousands. Millions. He was an incredible, talented man.

Life is so short.

► Re: Koda Kumi's 3 SPLASH. No. NO. WHAT IS THIS?! It's honestly one of her weakest singles like, ever. Lick me ❤ is sickeningly sweet, ECSTASY is a step in the right direction but still weak in comparison to her previous material, and 走れ! is just a disaster from start to finish. The remixes aren't good, either. I am so disappointed with this, and I'm ready to take a plunge off of the Koda Kumi bandwagon. I am tired of giving her chances and repeatedly feeling disappointed with her releases.

► Re: Girls' Generation's 소원을 말해봐 (Genie). I am endlessly addicted to this song. I wasn't really impressed with their mini album, but Genie, as a song, is fantastic. It's so edgy and fresh. I can't get enough of it!

► Re: Karl Wolf's Africa. I'm so glad this song is finally receiving the love it deserves. Funnily enough, I was introduced to this song last year while watching an episode of 音時間, back when Nishijima & Uno hosted. (Uno had a visible crush on Karl, LOL ♥) The interview was entirely in English, and when they played a small clip of Africa, I loved it. Then... I completely forgot about it. Yesterday I heard it on the radio, and I felt really happy and excited for him. It truly is a strong remake. I wish him all the best!

► I was just glancing at MuchMusic's countdown, and I only like two songs in the top thirty - Karl Wolf's Africa, and Eminem's We Made You. Sure, Eminem is using the same cheap ('let's mock celebrities for attention') tactic he's relied on since... forever, really, but it's quite catchy. I've always had a soft spot for Eminem, and I seriously have no idea why. I find his music appealing, perhaps because it's so lighthearted and ridiculous. But with that said, I equally enjoy his more serious work, like Lose Yourself. I dunno. I can't describe it. I'm not usually into hip hop, but I'm really drawn to his music, and I always have been - even as a kid.